What happens next?
Now that Nancy has told everyone at work that we are moving to NC, I guess it’s okay to discuss it here on the blog.
I never thought that moving would be easy, but for me the move to Carrboro is like flying into a gray cloud. On this side of the cloud, I have a great family and a cool apartment in Brooklyn, and tons of great musician friends and great gigs.
Then, I fly into the gray cloud. When I emerge on the other side, suddenly I live in a different state, with different friends, and different gigs (same great family!), different food stores, etc. It’s hard for me to imagine that now when I hang out with someone that I know, and we part ways and say goodnight, that it may be the last time I ever see that person. So I end up subconsciously thinking to myself “When we fly into that crazy gray cloud, everything will be taken care of. I’ll just have new friends, and I won’t miss the old ones.” Sometimes I even tell myself that it’s fine to move away, because I can come and visit NYC anytime I want.
In reality though, I know that when we arrive in Carrboro, I’ll have to start from scratch and build a life that I’m happy with and proud of. I can’t go back to doing the same things I did when I lived there from 1972-2000, because ten years of NYC has made me a completely different person.
There’s no doubt that I’ll miss my musician friends from New York, but I’ll have to work on building relationships with North Carolina musicians which support and inspire the musician that I have become. Probably the main difference from before is that I may not do the random restaurant ‘Jazz Gig’ that used to be my staple years ago.
Obviously, I’m married with a daughter and a doggie now, so I need to be a great husband, and an inspirational father too.
In one respect, the move to NC will be perfect for me, because I’m just struggling now to get up to speed with the organ, and I can probably get started gigging with it pretty soon once we get back. Also, I’m hoping to use my musical knowledge to help produce music, and start an internet-based music company.
From this side of the grey cloud though, it’s difficult to predict what’s on the other side
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